"Who needs a damn status to prove the kind of relationship we have. Yea we may not be officially together but we are still really good friends…"
Its funny how life brings surprises at the most unexpected time. Right on this day 2 years ago, we breathed some of our last days together for the second time. Look where we are now. Being apart from you for that long really did me good. I guess that’s why you played a huge role into shaping the person I am ; NOT necessarily a bad thing. You know me inside and out and its crazy how you are that person I fall back to every time. When I think of you, I think of how crazy a phase you put me through and the many emotions I felt at every second. You are THAT person that has achieved on making me feel so many different emotions all at the same time and that’s crazy and exhausting. To be able to make me feel jittery with butterflies in my stomach to feeling like puking just because I can’t handle the heartache, boy, that’s a talent all by itself. And although the past hasn’t been all that Rosy and Bright, you still make me feel the same way. So with all that being said, I still can’t quite comprehend why am I still hanging around you or what exactly I want to come out off from this thing that we have but something’s for sure - that I enjoy every moment going out with you to the movies/having dinner at random or planned places/watching movies on your laptop/just sleeping and waking up right next to you. Its crazy how every time I’m around you I feel like I have so much to say but not quite sure what to say or where to begin from. It scares me how I feel like I don’t have to impress you and I just get to be myself. There’s just something about you.. At this moment in time, I feel like you have contributed (however small/big) to shaping the way my mind works and the way my heart beats and I say that because I feel myself different from the way I was 2 years ago:
1) A little more paranoid,
2) Higher tolerance level,
3) Very VERY calm,
4) Rationally fighting in my head,
5) I guess a little less clingy?, etc…
Not quite sure if it’s a bad thing or a good thing but for now, I’d like to believe that its for the best. You’ve been the best and the worst thing that has EVER happen to me but I’m still very very grateful and thankful to have you around, now for the third time. You are definitely NOT the most romantic of all the guys and sometimes I feel like I’m trying way more than you but heh, I like how awkward you get and how Un-romantic you are. And this whole you going to NS for 5days a week with 2days book out and getting to see you at least ONCE in a week is pretty good I guess? #teamwork. It’ll only get better, yes? It’s been a very good few months together with you and I thank you for all that patience and effort just for a third time. I’d like to see how far we can go and hopefully at the end of the line, you’d still be that person still waiting and still trying. :) You are after all, my different~
Also, THANK YOU a million times for sacrificing your rest day just so that you can watch a movie/have dinner/look at me play like a loser at bowling today! Having you to ask me out is probably one of the best feelings by far just because this things don’t happen all the time and that’s fine. Keeping it minimal so that we don’t get bored, good idea! :D A good ending to a long ass post?
"And in the end, we can blame the stars or tell ourselves that it wasn’t meant to be, that it wasn’t destined to happened but deep down we know that the stars were not at fault and it wasn’t “meant to be” , The fault was in ourselves” - Fault in Our Stars.
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Ever since I can remember I’ve wanted to live in an attic / slanted roof room.